to live is to know that we can die anitym.. so do wat u can do without regrets
this gona be abit lame...
sometyms, u look across the streets.... wat u see are vehicles zooming by u, with all tose passer-bys, waiting to cross the streets jux opposite u via the traffic lights....
i duno how u felt about dieing.. a)another cycle? b) it wun happen to mi? c)nahs... im gona lived till this age? im gona live till my hair turns white! d)i duno wats going on? e) its jux if that day comes, then let it comes!!! f) im jux another living being on earth... maybe nobody even cares..
im now at (e).. i reali duno..
darren used to say that, its when the old and dieing becomes old and dieing, thn every thing that seemed so simple, like having a listening ear, it jux makes them smiles.. thats y he felt its much more meaningful to give the old and dieing to have that spark of re-live-ness...
i wanted so much to focus on the youngster, those hu have not seen enough.. those that are learning the sparks of living... not reliving.. sometyms, jux going online to take a look at the things that others countries kids are doing, jux drop a tear from ur eyes... its like, y cant i be there, to help them, see that the earth is much more bigger, greater thn they see from their basic knowledge....
dude... its thanks to u that keep that fire in me burning.. its that source of knowing that im not alone keep me accompanied... its that understanding that trust u had with me, brought me along u.... it may seemed as if everything turned upside down, but iu figured how to fixed everything right..... im here to say my thanks... if this rainbow is gonna be enduring that scornful rain and scorching sun... u better endured much longer than i do....
wateva it is....
even to the point of i cant be there, bring along thatpromise of letting the ashes follow u wherever ya?
the thought of noeing wats gona happen sux.. but it lets u have tym to know that u can or u gonna make up things that will make u regretful... wateva it is, we are much better off in a better society... wateva it is, tresure wat u have, wat u nid.. wat frens u have... tings and tym pass like nobody buisness..
was returning home from gran's hse... rmbing the guitar that rj lent mi ytd, i sms cass regarding the guitar guide.. thn... was listening the blasting music from my handfon.. forgot wat song i was listening.. but somehow, my dad lorry passed gan eng seng, da tiong park... thn was thinking about the days in Gan Eng Seng, da 2 yrs in lower sec, and the 2 funfilled ones in upper sec...
jus within that 5 mins, many images passed my mind, the days that i had joy and tears.. thn jux thn an mrt was heard.. looking up, i tote of jj.. the times i had, the frens i made.. thn suddenly, i felt light, and i was sniling from within.. dun understand y.. was wearing da cap, so i held my cap down with my right palm...
as the lorry pas queensway sec, i finally realised y that smile from within..the answer is so simple, jux think simple, dun do much analysis, forgive and forget, understand not only urslf and others.. the answer that i have been searching... i noe how important it is to be happy, happy within..
eversince the leave, i still laugh as often, but the pain and heart's sorrow could be deadly... decided last wk that i shld reali rest and start reflecting and evaluating.. nothing came out till today....
As the center of life changes, thats whn u find new hope.. as important as letting go and giving up, is tobecome stronger and finding the path once lost...
im reali thankful for da frens that stood by mi, hu tolerate all my stupid actions, haha. this time is a real promise, a promise to smile from within and looking at the sunset, but with a different insight....
i had lost wats precious to mi, the far dreams that i had set out for... perhaps its still out of sight, but i wun give a damn in giving up, i will still fight, like i had before.. i wan to be the old mi hu isnt afraid of standing up, hu isnt afraid of losing out and giving her best.. the one that will smile from inside, no matter how hard it may be... i will change... thou some say its beta to go beyond, but i jux wan to be the hu i wan before...
bing chia said my heart felt lighter, yes indeed, and im not gona let this tym, this inspiration fromdeep within to be burnt.. i will carry on with wat i had stop and left behind.. i will understand wats hope beyong the limits of despairs and feel wats joy within the feilds of pain.. it sounds and feels like enlightenment, whn one felt so much lighter...
will be back, the crazy mi, perhaps even more ...
thnx...
thnx d for all the scoldings, many still blast thru my mind, huili for all da cryings and understanding, cass for being there and shutting mi up, meng for all da advices and consulting, bing chia for all da jokes and care, hui yi fir all da attentive listening, rosemary for all da ideas to divert mi, mr ng for all da motivation, ruijun for all da laughters, miss armstrong for all da advices, mr handsome ng for all da smiles, mr chua for all da siaoness, and my twin vian for company...
wun say anything more, as much as im doing my best, in this struggle of life, be all the best u guys can be in this coming challenge.. =)
life is a teaching whn u are both a teacher, and a student.
life is a torment whn u are both a destroyer and a failure.
life is a journey whn u are both an explorer and a believer.
life is an enjoyment whn u are both a motivator and an inspiration!!!
the smile from within is the best medicine u will ever find.. =)
Name: Viv - the survivor -
the warrior hu fights.
Birthday: 10 apr 1990
my rules of life
1. i am hu i am
2. wat comes ard goes ard... - update whn i think of ani..
Rules
the rules here.
u can scold mi for wateva u wan..but dun doubt my love
for the things i love
Wishing For..
wishlist here.
1.mr right..(i dun think i will wan ani now.. but maybe if i get 1 i might think of changing myself?)joking..
2.happiness- i have been longing for true happiness.. those that u happy till u cry.
3.love of wat it meant to live
4. to be some1 of some value not only to myself, but oso to mani others..
5. have a lifelong soulmate!!!
6. i wana go backpaking!!!
7. i wana be a prision officer!! - i noe it will be hard to happen...
8. i wana go to be some educational missionaries...
