was returning home from gran's hse... rmbing the guitar that rj lent mi ytd, i sms cass regarding the guitar guide.. thn... was listening the blasting music from my handfon.. forgot wat song i was listening.. but somehow, my dad lorry passed gan eng seng, da tiong park... thn was thinking about the days in Gan Eng Seng, da 2 yrs in lower sec, and the 2 funfilled ones in upper sec...
jus within that 5 mins, many images passed my mind, the days that i had joy and tears.. thn jux thn an mrt was heard.. looking up, i tote of jj.. the times i had, the frens i made.. thn suddenly, i felt light, and i was sniling from within.. dun understand y.. was wearing da cap, so i held my cap down with my right palm...
as the lorry pas queensway sec, i finally realised y that smile from within..the answer is so simple, jux think simple, dun do much analysis, forgive and forget, understand not only urslf and others.. the answer that i have been searching... i noe how important it is to be happy, happy within..
eversince the leave, i still laugh as often, but the pain and heart's sorrow could be deadly... decided last wk that i shld reali rest and start reflecting and evaluating.. nothing came out till today....
As the center of life changes, thats whn u find new hope.. as important as letting go and giving up, is tobecome stronger and finding the path once lost...
im reali thankful for da frens that stood by mi, hu tolerate all my stupid actions, haha. this time is a real promise, a promise to smile from within and looking at the sunset, but with a different insight....
i had lost wats precious to mi, the far dreams that i had set out for... perhaps its still out of sight, but i wun give a damn in giving up, i will still fight, like i had before.. i wan to be the old mi hu isnt afraid of standing up, hu isnt afraid of losing out and giving her best.. the one that will smile from inside, no matter how hard it may be... i will change... thou some say its beta to go beyond, but i jux wan to be the hu i wan before...
bing chia said my heart felt lighter, yes indeed, and im not gona let this tym, this inspiration fromdeep within to be burnt.. i will carry on with wat i had stop and left behind.. i will understand wats hope beyong the limits of despairs and feel wats joy within the feilds of pain.. it sounds and feels like enlightenment, whn one felt so much lighter...
will be back, the crazy mi, perhaps even more ...
thnx...
thnx d for all the scoldings, many still blast thru my mind, huili for all da cryings and understanding, cass for being there and shutting mi up, meng for all da advices and consulting, bing chia for all da jokes and care, hui yi fir all da attentive listening, rosemary for all da ideas to divert mi, mr ng for all da motivation, ruijun for all da laughters, miss armstrong for all da advices, mr handsome ng for all da smiles, mr chua for all da siaoness, and my twin vian for company...
wun say anything more, as much as im doing my best, in this struggle of life, be all the best u guys can be in this coming challenge.. =)
life is a teaching whn u are both a teacher, and a student.
life is a torment whn u are both a destroyer and a failure.
life is a journey whn u are both an explorer and a believer.
life is an enjoyment whn u are both a motivator and an inspiration!!!
the smile from within is the best medicine u will ever find.. =)
haha.. went for a mini outing today, 4f leh.. haha
the afternoon 1 with rachel, cux she organise, yantong,zoe,siongpeng,terry,ivan...
went k box, had a fool of myslf, lol, with kind twin more siao can. lol. thn we went steamboat for dinner, meet up with huiyi, brian, dexter, ruijun...
lol.thou dinner didnt reali took much, cux was hlping ourselves to the food, cux hungry ghost festival still havent ended.. haha.. thn oh ya, rj says her guitar can lend mi.. nice? lol.
ok.. hmm, after dinner, the most funni thing is whn going back to marina bay mrt, we walk back la.. lol. mi, huiyi, ivan, peng, brian.. lol. thn walk for ard 20 mins... talk to huiyi lo.. lol. kp thinking ppl wan to rob us, thinking about the hungry ghosts, like whether we will walk into the path where the lights will jux go off.... lol.
thn went home lo.. walk huiyi home, managed to chat a while with her, damn long nv tok le can? lol. hmm.. thn got home, contd doing up this blog....
think, even thou our class has been splitted, those in jc in jc, ervina in overseas, mi and rose schooless, thn the others in polys.. but the homely feeling stil thr... its like it doesnt matter if any1 does the toking, its jux the matter of those that are present there, the feeling that people still cares and gives the concern for one another like before.... is it wan cry liao? haha
while walking back to the mrt station, huiyi said this :' actually, the class that i will remember is 4f, not the other classes yet, cux thats whn we are..' feel like crying at that tym.. wat is graduate?if things nv change and remains at it is, i really dont mmind can? sitting beside rose during sec 3 is one of the best seatings, thn it was sec4 in btwn weisheng and wenli, those are v fond memories that im reali v afraid to forget can? reali v afraid.. but thats life huh? to change? so that we can grow rite?
Name: Viv - the survivor -
the warrior hu fights.
Birthday: 10 apr 1990
my rules of life
1. i am hu i am
2. wat comes ard goes ard... - update whn i think of ani..
Rules
the rules here.
u can scold mi for wateva u wan..but dun doubt my love
for the things i love
Wishing For..
wishlist here.
1.mr right..(i dun think i will wan ani now.. but maybe if i get 1 i might think of changing myself?)joking..
2.happiness- i have been longing for true happiness.. those that u happy till u cry.
3.love of wat it meant to live
4. to be some1 of some value not only to myself, but oso to mani others..
5. have a lifelong soulmate!!!
6. i wana go backpaking!!!
7. i wana be a prision officer!! - i noe it will be hard to happen...
8. i wana go to be some educational missionaries...
