i reali had enough....
since young.. yes, i noe i had alot of privileges... private tuition, but... wat is all these... asking mi not to go reach my dreams like firefighters, police officers, army, navy, marine biologist, social worker.... they always planned mi to get a high income job.. fixed income.. fixed hrs job.. wat the...

baby sitting sux.. i went tru tat.. i had enough.. so much so.. im afraid of having kids my own.... the responsibility is not jux having the enough to feed them for them to grow.. but noeing wat to give and noeing how to guide them...

it was babysitting.. thn it was my flight of freedom i dun ming bai.. i cant go out.. y? oh.. cux u have to set a good example for ur sis to follow.. u cant do this.. u cant do that.. cux U HAVE TO SET A GOOD EXAMPLE FOR UR SISTERS TO FOLLOW!!!! y u kp scolding ur sis? - dun u bully them !!! - whn in actual fact.... they were the 1 hu did things wrong... - y u nv stop them or scold them? wtf.. i scold my fault they cry.. i nv scold, let them on their own.. oso my fault that they kena hurt or wat...

u cant become the head prefect.. u cant do this u cant do that...
-ah yin ur sis become vice captain of the basketball team leh.... she good hoh?
- ah yin y u got so many things to do.. dunid to stay in sch.. faster get ur ass back here... u have to take care of ur sis...
-ah yin y u go jc? should go poly wat... thn u can come out and work straight... thn i can relax abit liao. thn u can hlp support the family..
-ah yin y u so stress.. u dont have to think about ur sis... hu ask u to be so stress? jux take note of ur stuffs... u dunid to think u so weida.. dunid u to crack ur brain for their future
-ahyin u noe ur sis go the guang zhou exchange programme trip come back alr... she so happy..
-ah yin no! u cant go to the overseas university programme... u should stay at home.... i dun care if u paying the trip on ur own.
-ahyin c la.. ur fault.. now ur sis like u so boyish....

most recent:
-ahyin.. should i let ur youngest sis go the guangzhou trip again? she can qualify leh..
-ahyin.. i dun think i should let u go OCIP... lata u not enough $ u come look for mi again...

i reali had enough.. y everything my sis can i cant..!!!
i noe im a v sucky sis... not a good daughter.. not a good fren.. not a good student.... i noe all of u look down on mi.. but y mux u be so bias? so many nights.. i had to cry secretly.. f
or fear that u will scold...
for fear that u will worry..
for fear of hearing the same old sentence : i nv force u rite? i nv stress u rite?
for fear of u intruding my dreams, my determinations.

my dreams had always been high up there.. but everytime.. u will jux like to trashed them down...
mum i reali wana go army.... - NO-
mum i reali reali wana try navy - NO-
whn i wanted to ask for air force.. i dint dare to....

mum i become head prefect - wtf... u cant manage so mani things.. y u still go become head prefect?
mum my lvl position improved liao leh... from 70+ to 40 + happy? - huh? u sure not? u suck up to teacher or teacher c u are the head prefect then nicer to u when marking?

i reali had enough....
im gona leave sooner or later..
there is no way am i gona put them in the 1st place in my heart...

we hold the same surname..
but y?

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