im thinking of not mani issues.. but im like.... haix.. i reali duno... its like im reali numbed... erm... was going for tution.. wasnt able to get out of bed in the morning.. overslpt.. as in reali overslpt.. i realised it was lik 740 thn i was like arhs.. forget it.. thn i went back to slp... the next time i woke up, it was 11 plus coming twelve. i woke up.. thn its like.. 1st ting i do.. look at my fon.. no msg.. ok.. thn i went back to my bed... i tried to slp.. ok.. wat happens next is that the mind is full of emptiness.. i wun regret.. i jux felt stupid senseless to say..

gosh...

darren called..
i realised mani things that i had forgotten.. i wun say.. i remb mani things that i shld nv had forgotten.. its jux how u viewed things that matter.. not how the outcome that rules the world.. if u wana ur world to rocks.. thn go think about rocks if it rocks ur day.. was joking.. not funi at all i noe.. but but... haix.. judgement day is coming soon.. its gona hit my weekend... wat will the things come to as? i think i noe it.. lets jux avoid this topic... i reali miz jj.. jj jj jj jj jj jj jj jj jj jj jj jj jj jj
did i ever regret coming out? nope.. i felt sad.. but my ans is no.. pardon mi for today.. screw loose.. i jux wana spam my own entry.. thats all.. no hard feelings.. but.. life reali.. haix....

i realised that..
i dun wana get a married life afta all..
its gona back packing?
no kids..
but i dun mind being close frens' kids god mother... i dun mind.. hlping out with the kids.. but pls.. i dun wan ani kids.. i still wana some life partner.. but no obliged ones that wans kids.. ok.. this is totali out of topic.. but.. ya..

whn will u understand tat it is the peak or the climax of ur life? no way can u judge.. judgement day is coming..
say goodluck..

Time Of My Life – David Cook

I’ve been waiting for my dreams
To turn into something
I could believe in
and looking for that magic rainbow
On the horizon
I couldn’t see it
Until I let go
Gave in to love
Watched all the bitterness burn
Now I'm coming alive
Body and soul
Feelin’ my world start to turn

And I'll taste every moment
And live it out loud
I know this is the time
This is the time to be
More than a name or a face in the crowd
I know this is the time
This is the time of my life
Time of my life…

Holdin’ onto things that
Vanished into the air
Left me in pieces but
Now I'm rising from the ashes
Findin’ my wings and all that I needed
Was there all along
Within my reach
as close as the beat of my heart

And I’ll taste every moment
And live it out loud
I know this is the time
This is the time to be
More than a name or a face in the crowd
I know this is the time
This is the time of my life
Time of my life…

Now I’m out on the edge of forever
Ready to run
Keepin’ my feet on the ground
My arms open wide
Facing the sun

And I’ll taste every moment
And live it out loud
I know this is the time
This is the time to be
More than a name or a face in the crowd
I know this is the time
This is the time of my life…
(My life..) - Additional by igi_master

More than a name or a face in the crowd
I know this is the time
This is the time of my life…

This is the time of my life…
Time of my life…

it was weird... these few days..
i duno why.. i jux wana slp my days out.. i dun wan to be a part of anithing animore.. haix.. jux joking la....

on the bus back. i felt that everything are jux wat will be the past for the future.. was out with yi hwee for the batman movie.. ok la.. was gruesome.. dint reali liked it.. was gruesomE!! .... zzz ... sian.. suppose to go jog again tml.. bt i doubt so.. the wound still looks pretty bad.. i dun wan animore scars. and i think i still kinda unstable huh?


was listening to my hp.. justin- hou yan- the 1 playing now.. thinking of erm kunming again.. wat stupid mi sia!!! wah.. jux realised it was 2 yrs le.. haha.. 1st july.. memorable lo.. no wonder i felt like weird weird in sch that mon... jux realised it was that day....

stupid mi!! haix.. i liked my class now.. haha.. got all the lame funi ppl!! we went to watch red cliff la.. thou not whole class.. but i enjoyed it!! reali v much! with junxian, jasmine, joel.. the 3 js.. dun have the other js .. thn got kede and mi!! haha! ok.. had loads of fun!!!! thats mon...

sian.. dint update blog so much that i duno wat to write sia!!

oh ya... today damn lame la...
whn mi and YIHWEE came out of ps.. got this 2 guys from some church.. approached us, say wana do survey.. in the end is like ask alot of questions:
a: u believe in god?
mi: huh? nahs.. i believe in myself..
yh: ya

a: wat is ur ambition?
mi: huh? erm.. prision officer
yh: architech
a: reali arhs? prision offficer ? so cool sia..

a:then how u explain how u come into this world? - toking about my ans...
mi: my mother's womb la..

a:if u have 1 million what will u do?
yh: go ard the world, like japan, spain?
mi:oh.. give half of it to hlp the aids village in africa?
a: huh? so different from being a prision officer! i dun c much link..

thn thy blabbered on toking about christainity.. i was switch off.. zzz lame.....

no offense.. but pls, dun ask mi go church ever again.. im not v v devoted to buddhism.. but it jux seems to mi that their vales, are values that are v precious to mi..

haix.. is there ani way to calm myself away? i wan go cycling!!!

http://www.soccertee.com

the shirts v cute!!! go take a look!! =)

i was waken up by hui li's call today.. worried. but she say she will be alrite. so ... ya.

went to subway.. did some stuffs.. broke kaka umbrella while rushing to get a cab..
=/ thn tok to kaka abit.. she made mi mad sia.. zzz im so dead.... how sia.. this feeling is tremendously tough for mi to handle...

arhs...

a painful hole in the pocket for taking taxi here and there.. but the taxi uncle was a mr nice guy!! =)

i think i noe wat to do.. jux stay still dun do anithing or say anithing stupid.. ya.. thats should be the way... ='

i dun mind short..
cux wat i reali mind is chen jing yong you.

i reali had enough....
since young.. yes, i noe i had alot of privileges... private tuition, but... wat is all these... asking mi not to go reach my dreams like firefighters, police officers, army, navy, marine biologist, social worker.... they always planned mi to get a high income job.. fixed income.. fixed hrs job.. wat the...

baby sitting sux.. i went tru tat.. i had enough.. so much so.. im afraid of having kids my own.... the responsibility is not jux having the enough to feed them for them to grow.. but noeing wat to give and noeing how to guide them...

it was babysitting.. thn it was my flight of freedom i dun ming bai.. i cant go out.. y? oh.. cux u have to set a good example for ur sis to follow.. u cant do this.. u cant do that.. cux U HAVE TO SET A GOOD EXAMPLE FOR UR SISTERS TO FOLLOW!!!! y u kp scolding ur sis? - dun u bully them !!! - whn in actual fact.... they were the 1 hu did things wrong... - y u nv stop them or scold them? wtf.. i scold my fault they cry.. i nv scold, let them on their own.. oso my fault that they kena hurt or wat...

u cant become the head prefect.. u cant do this u cant do that...
-ah yin ur sis become vice captain of the basketball team leh.... she good hoh?
- ah yin y u got so many things to do.. dunid to stay in sch.. faster get ur ass back here... u have to take care of ur sis...
-ah yin y u go jc? should go poly wat... thn u can come out and work straight... thn i can relax abit liao. thn u can hlp support the family..
-ah yin y u so stress.. u dont have to think about ur sis... hu ask u to be so stress? jux take note of ur stuffs... u dunid to think u so weida.. dunid u to crack ur brain for their future
-ahyin u noe ur sis go the guang zhou exchange programme trip come back alr... she so happy..
-ah yin no! u cant go to the overseas university programme... u should stay at home.... i dun care if u paying the trip on ur own.
-ahyin c la.. ur fault.. now ur sis like u so boyish....

most recent:
-ahyin.. should i let ur youngest sis go the guangzhou trip again? she can qualify leh..
-ahyin.. i dun think i should let u go OCIP... lata u not enough $ u come look for mi again...

i reali had enough.. y everything my sis can i cant..!!!
i noe im a v sucky sis... not a good daughter.. not a good fren.. not a good student.... i noe all of u look down on mi.. but y mux u be so bias? so many nights.. i had to cry secretly.. f
or fear that u will scold...
for fear that u will worry..
for fear of hearing the same old sentence : i nv force u rite? i nv stress u rite?
for fear of u intruding my dreams, my determinations.

my dreams had always been high up there.. but everytime.. u will jux like to trashed them down...
mum i reali wana go army.... - NO-
mum i reali reali wana try navy - NO-
whn i wanted to ask for air force.. i dint dare to....

mum i become head prefect - wtf... u cant manage so mani things.. y u still go become head prefect?
mum my lvl position improved liao leh... from 70+ to 40 + happy? - huh? u sure not? u suck up to teacher or teacher c u are the head prefect then nicer to u when marking?

i reali had enough....
im gona leave sooner or later..
there is no way am i gona put them in the 1st place in my heart...

we hold the same surname..
but y?

Labels: sianed

woohaaa!!!

the voice sux now..
its going deeper everyday!!! sian.. whn can i recover from cough sia? heehee...

some email clement send.. kinda lame.. recieved it before.. but its kinda funi.. =)
STUPID QUESTIONS WITH THE SMART ANSWERS:

BOY : May I hold your hand?
GIRL : No thanks, it isn't heavy.

GIRL : Say you love me! Say you love me!
BOY : You love me...

GIRL : If we become engaged will you give me a ring??
BOY : Sure, what's your phone number??

GIRL : I think the poorest people are the happiest.
BOY : Then marry me and we'll be the happiest couple

GIRL : Darling, I want to dance like this forever..
BOY : Don't you ever want to improve??

BOY : I love you and I could die for you!
GIRL : How soon??

BOY : I would go to the end of the world for you!
GIRL : Yes, but would you stay there??

SHARON : Have you ever had a hot passionate, burning kiss??
TRACY : I did once.. He'd forgotten to take the cigarette out of his mouth.

MAN : You remind me of the sea.
WOMAN : Because I'm wild, romantic and exciting?
MAN : NO, because you make me sick.

WIFE : You tell a man something, it goes in one ear and comes out of the other.
HUSBAND : You tell a woman something: It goes in both ears and comes out of the mouth.

MARY : John says I'm pretty. Andy says I'm ugly.What do u think,
Peter?
PETER : A bit of both. I think you're pretty ugly.

Girlfriend : '...And are you sure you love me and no one else ?'
Boyfriend : 'Dead Sure! I checked the whole list again yesterday'.

Teacher : 'Which is more important to us, the sun or the moon?'
Pupil : 'The moon'.
Teacher : 'Why?'
Pupil : 'The moon gives us light at night when we need it but the sun gives us light only in the day time when we don't need it'.

3) Teacher : 'What do you call a person who keeps on talking when people are no longer interested?'
Pupil : 'A teacher'.

4) Waiter : 'Would you like your coffee black?'
Customer : 'What other colors do you have ?'

5) My father is so old that when he was in school, history was called current affairs.

6) Teacher : 'Sam, you talk a lot !'
Sam : 'It's a family tradition'.
Teacher : 'What do you mean?'
Sam : 'Sir, my grandpa was a street hawker, my father is a teacher'.
Teacher : 'What about your mother?'
Sam : 'She's a woman'.

7) Tom : 'How should I convey the news to my father that I've failed?'
David: 'You just send a telegram: Result declared, past year's performance repeated'.

8 Teacher : 'Now, children, if I saw a man beating a donkey and stopped him, what virtue would I be showing?'
Student : 'Brotherly love'.

9) Teacher : 'Now, Sam, tell me frankly do you say prayers before eating?'
Sam : 'No sir, I don't have to, my mom is a good cook'.

10) Patient : 'What are the chances of my recovering doctor?'
Doctor : 'One hundred percent. Medical records show that nine out of ten people die of the disease you have. Yours is the tenth case I've treated. The others all died'.

11) Teacher : ' Can anybody give an example of COINCIDENCE?'
One Student : 'Sir, my Mother and Father got married on the same day and at the same time.'

12) Teacher : ' George Washington not only chopped down his father's Cherry tree, but also admitted doing it.
Now do you know why his father didn't punish him ?'
One Student: ' Because George still had the axe in is hand.'

Labels: jus for laughs.. hehe

this reali sux....

having a bad throat... stucked nose, having bad wirings in my head....

will there be ani times whn things gets beta?

things died.. and new things starts to come in with a new cycle.. of unwanted things.... of things that u will nv liked dealing with... n they are there... is it reali im getting out of hand? cux wateva that im doing.. im like jux thinking about ... ... i reali duno wat to do.... single is a nice status... but having the layer of warmth ard that cold heart... thats the love that i had reali looking for.... but this time round i dun think that circumstances allows mi for that..

this new mi sux.. can some1 jux knock mi out of it?

im totali confused.... d... is it more of heart over mind? but im afraid im jux being too confused.... arhs....

but wateva it is...
i will nv regret having some1 so great as a fren....

this time round, i will smile..