oh my gosh....
wat is skip sch so mani days whn it jux reopens?
feeling sux...
and i definitely nv mug at home....
im dehydrating kinda fast.....
zzz

things are kinda ok this whole week.. tests, sch, work....
tml is gona be my off day from everything... as in i can slp at home.. yippeee...
saw sat with his botak head last sun while working at subway.. =)
he looked much built up.. but can c he is much restless thn before oso.. =/

i wana go backpacking..
so many crazy ideas inside my head now..
any1 wans to backpack? =)
reali...

im so in love with supernatural..
esp with dean winchester =) he is so cute.. hehe =)

can i have a tatoo like this?

rosemary kwek is a master in disguise... thou she has some weird thinking but she still thinks that...
haha! wat is she apologise to herself for being unfair to herself? ok... she has always been weird huh? lol!

ok.. ytd was a fun day!!! went to armstrong house.. chat, scandals, gossips loads about gess... was reali happy ytd, with zoe, yantong, rose and siongpeng.. so sad rachel wasnt there.. =P we ate buffet lunch HAPPY HAPPY!!! =) meesiam, springroll.. chat and chat and chat.. played majong! we stayed from 1 plus 2, till ard 10!!! happy!! i reali glad to c armstrong.. reali missed the days in her tution the days in gess.. hais.. y mux things be like that? as in.. the way gess is operating now.. practicalli things are changed 180 degrees!! haix....

went to study today! such a long day without anithing gained! as in.. i ended up with nothing..zzz i noe its not good..

im reali missing u...
=' reali...
haix..
no more double sneeze....
no more 11:11....
haix....
sob sob..

guts feelings says there are some1 there looking over mi.... hu? i duno....

haha

worked on sun and yesterday... i like to work with zic, fiq and kira... fullstop.. the others.. nahs.. the paul even worst.. i reali feel that there is something wrong with him... eee... wat is watch all the rubbish bins, bring knives to work.. from the 1st day he came i've found him weird... zzz
eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!! lol!!!

went out today....
to chinatown with mum'smum and mum and sis... boring.. walked ard.. nth nice to eat sia at the renovated hawker... so damn hot.. the weather!!! arhs.. everybody were like so hot tempered..
thn went to si ma lu... asked for peace.. no more usual prayers for love charms.. lol!!! =)

thn went to uncle place pick my cousins and uncle, and wife up.. went to airport!!! T3 here i come!!! =) i reali c planes lifting off... im reali reali happy!!! =) ate popeye.. i noe wat to eat nxt time... eat the fish ones.. reali nice
=) tnx siong peng for coming along! =)

can i like erm... noe hu is looking afta mi? cux i noe there is some1 but i culdnt point out hu.. maybe i think too much? thx la joey for telling mi that sneeze twice is ppl think of mi.. cux tese days.. i always find myslf looking at the time whn it clicks to 11.11... at nite usuali.. morning also will ,... this is reali eeee... lol... thy say if u c the time.. and its double 1 double 1 = 11.11 that means some1 is thinkin... happy!!! =) if u are the 1 tag my blog.. =P okok.. im thinking too much.. over board huh? lol.











photos from class outing.. =) happie happie..

lata gotta go armstrong hse.. happie happie.. =)

ok!! im back to blog =)

lets start with today..

jux back from hlping solomon from his bbq that his parents had organised for his church.. at 1st things were looking good.. until all the fire start exhausting out for no reasons.. thn some uncles from his church came over to hlp.. ok.. made mi so noob.. =( zzz... lol..

but then.. things were looking good.. i loved the potato salad!!! =) reali reali loved it... haha... thn mi and siong peng started bbq'ing... lol..actuali is mi and solo bbq'ing.. siong peng was eating most of the time.. i concluded that he is an auntie sha shou!!! lol.. wat is solo's aunt like to tok to him soo much!! lol.!! had quite a lot of crabstick.. but i dint like to peng the otah.. cant c if its ready or not... zzz

but today was fun!!! =)
thx solo!! been long since i bbq? lol!

yesterday!!!
i was out the whole day for erm,,,
4F'06 !!! CLASS OUTING!!!!!

it was fucking tired!!! zzz haha

we met at 930... ate at tiong'smac.. thn erm.... we went to take bus 196,... thn we cycle all the way to changi airport... thn we reach back to the bike rental shop at ard 3? thn we went to eat subway!! SAW henry.. i complained like hell!!! wat is the shirley!!! zzz ok.. lata i shall say wat happen..

thn ppl started to come in ard 5 plus till 6? ppl adding in.. so in the end...

there were zoe, xiangyi, le en, mi, huiyi, yantong, rachel, siong peng, ivan, koksoon, brian, kenneth, weisheng, menghan, jing kai, marcus goh & kho, amrit and hpyo paing. haha!!

was fun!! toking... cycling, thou it was so tired to cycle... thn we tok in the dark.. was a bit dissapointed.. cux i tote there were much more ppl coming.. and its like we ordered overshoot.. was saded.. reali.. but it was fun.. been long since i c the guys played soccer.. they still gather to play now and then.. happy to hear that..
gals mux oso do that more often =) hopefully.. haha..... thn erm.... yup.... been long since i tok to meng han... wat is all disturb mi.. no more arhs.. stop! haha...

ok.. here comes the irritating part.. it happen on wed...
i skipped working on mon and tuues cux i was 1. too tired.. 2. my auntie prob... elaborate it lata.. zzz i was happily going to work.. cux in the evening will be able to c hafiq and zickie =D haha.. but... 1stly, saiful was late, by an hr.. thn, afta that tings were kinda fine la.. thn .... things starts to arhs!!!! i reali wan work with sat again!! ARHS!! the old staff team beta!!! =' i reali wana cry...

wat is that fucking bitch, the SHIRLEY come and confront mi.. zzz.... she was like come in and say i wan to c vivian.. can she come out.. ok,.. this is jux the start.. i went out.. she was with a fren from disney, 1 of my pri schoolmate,1 of the captain's ball opponent... thn i tote wat sia..

Shirley , irritatin fucking ugly face that she thinks that she v pretty says: y u tok behind my back.. wat u say? say i act mature.. u dun deny.. cux i saw the msg that u sent lina(another new staff)wat u meant by that.. macdonald's dun wan mi somemore rite? if u wan to tok bad about mi tok to mi face to face la... y mux tok behind my back?
mi, so irritated byt her.. i refuuse to confront her standing.. so i sat down.. and say: u wan tok u sit down..
she dint want to.. thn i dun care her.. drag the seat out.. gesture her to sit.. so she bo pian
mi: wat.. that time is u say mac dun wan u thats y u came over to subway.. thn tat time u say behind my back i got say anithing meh... u think i got tell shyful about u meh? ... ... ...

i simply quarrel with her la.. bitch.. she think got ppl as back up thn i scared is it? pls la.. my mum is wat? mum is worst than her whn she was young.. thn my dad? typical ah beng.... i got wat? i was a head prefect, jj leader.. pls.... i handle ppl hu are worst... zzz fucking hell.. in the end i shut her mouth.. thn i ask if she wan to shake hands not.. she got no choice.. stupid bitch!!!!

thankx zickie and hafiq for being so concerned about mi.. kp coming out to c if things are ok if that fucking shirley is making things hard for mi.. i was like... damn fucking angry.. i reali wana fight with her la.!!! wat is i reali have so many fucking things at home alr.. but i ren.. cux i PITY HER!!! cux she no father mother to teach... i lecture her abit... wat the fuck!!! FREAKING PAIN IN THE ASSS!!!!! STUPID BITCH!!! wana act lian infront of mi is it? nxt time i call my gang down!!! 999!!! she beta watch out... ji bai!! say i biased.. where got. she was the 1 hu ostracised mi 1st.. thn now is pot calling the kettle black? dress like shit.. and still think she chio.. no mirror at home i got .. shld give her as present huh? broken pieces of mirror.. ass!!!! im damn fucking angry... i reali wanted to slap her in the face... ji bai!!!

but in the end...
this week..
althou it was a bad start..
but the outings behind was fun!!!

to all hu are having tough days..
days will get beta.. althou things are like worsening.....
jux lighten up....
humans are humans cux we only c things tt we want to c.. but we dint noe about the things that we refuse to see that are the reality of wat things are....
feel with ur guts, but think with rationalism...

control how u think, cux u cant control how u feel.....

smile whn u frown.. cux u duno whether if there's some1 in love with the smile of urs....

i have been sneezing, twice everytime this whole week, so its ppl cursing or ppl missing mi?
hehe

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Labels: photos =)

wooh!!!!

muahaha!!!!

out since thuursday!!!

timeline:
1230 : was alr at vivo( harboufront) waiting for the unstables gals... =)
130: looked at my watch.. there goes, 1 hrs..
215: finalli thy reached!!! wat is i almost slpt.. zzz
2.15- 6: we wanted to go sentosa.. but looking at the time and the sky, i dun wana step out of the main island.. thn we were deciding where to go and we went to white dog cafe =)
7: met zoe at orchard!! GSS time, i went fareast for jeans =)
9 + : go home =)

it was like so fun going out with cass and huili.. we did alot of catching up huh? but wat is time pass so fast.. in the end that 2 dun have to go home for dinner 1 lo.. sian.. shld have say earlier.. thn we can like go out de lo!!! zzzz as in can go out longer!!!!! =)

went fareast had some jeans buying =) i kinda like my new jeans! =)
thnx zoe for pei'ing mi.. =)

thn i had sent an email for all 4f =) happi!! gona have an outing coming fri...

a) half day - zoo outing?
b) full day - zoo outing + dinner at night
c) half day -east coast park - we cycle =)
d) full day - east coast park - we cycle in the early afternoon, at nite we order pizza thn we sit at the beach play games?
e) half day - shopping plus movie
f) full day - shopping plus movie...

p.s: half day is till evening
full day is reali full day!!!

wateva it is,
ifv u are complaining about the planning and the choices and are thinking about other things forget it.. if u wan to do other activities, u go organise urself.. for now, muahaha.. pls choose onli the above!!!!

yesh!!! =)

ytd.. wasnt a good day...
was slping real late, ard 3+ thn slp on thurs, cux was watching anime.. thn i was awaken by my granny cux of some family things that have to settle.. zzz.. was out since 920.. thn rush down to their hse... i was kinda scared... and angry with my uncle.. angry with the counter nurse at SGH!!! FUCKIN BITCHES.. dun allow us to forward the appointment.. have no choice, go to a n e in NUH... i reali was like ... shit.. wat is happening... can ani1 hlp.. thank god!!! the nurses there are much beta.. i got a feeling then that my aunt still dint noe that something is wrong with her... dangerous... =' im scared things will happen to the 2 younger cousins... =/ my uncle fault? =z

thn rushed to it the mushrooms and siong peng... went to watch kung fu panda.. was so hungry afta that that i ate 2 pasta at pastamania.. but phew.. things got beta afta that...
was still worried about wat mite happen to ... but anw, life still have to move on i think... =(

thn we went to tiong.. had long chats and photo takings!! =) was supposed to look forward to miting armstrong..
but she was too tired.. thn =( nvm.. we will mit her up soon!! =)

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A) People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs & replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.

B) Tag 8 people to do this quiz & those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by & cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by.Continue this game by sending it to other people.

#1 If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
~ i will do the same back? nahs.. it just mean that its either we are not fated to be tgt or its jux a moment of folly by him? cux i dun think ppl hu reali likes mi will.. lol. HAHA!!

#2 If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
~i reali want real world peace.. a better world.. no aids, no genocides, no natural disasters.. although its all these that balance the world... if that can ever come true... it will nv happen i think....

#3 What will your dream wedding be like?
~haha.. jux a 2 person issue.. go on secret honeymoon trips to missionaries, like backpacking tour ard the world, n hlping every1 that we see along that nid hlp!!! its the blessing to love and to be loved!

#4 Are you hungry?
!!!! obvious!! im hungry to noe wat will happen to mi whn i leave the place that im most comfortable in...zzzz..

#5 What’s your ideal lover like?
~jux a simple mate, HE dun have to be any1 good looking or wat... jux sum1 hu understands mi, cheer mi on, thats all.. . its the appreciations from him that can push mi on... =)

#6 Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
~erm.. both? cux its like erm, living without both u mite as well go n die?

#7 How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
~the longest was erm... 6 years? the most i will now is.... i dun mind waiting for dozens of years, provided that he noes and he likes mi too? as in he ask mi to wait.. if not i wunt animore!!!

#8 If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
~erm, hit on the spot.. i will rather stay confuse, dun wan to think on it, change the topic to another person if can?!

#9 Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?
~ life sux nowadays... almost everything... jux life itself..

#10 Is being in a college fun?
~ya..tats where i reali had the most dramatic part of my life... i reali treasure those days... thx.!!

#11 How do you see yourself in ten years time?
~mi? erm, roaming ard the world, trying to settle down somewhere as an educator?

#12 Who are currently the most important people to you?
~ satria, mushrooms, unstables, thou one of them... safwan, ruijun, siong peng, bing chia, mother theresa? lol.

#13 What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
~a lame joker lo.. zzz lol.!!! a nice buddy to be with huh?

#14 Do you believe in God?
~erm... my god? omg la.. zzz... im a buddist, a devoted 1 thou i duno alot of things.. but i believe in 1 think.. if im being brought to this world, i will be given the chance to be hu i wana be..

#15 Would you rather be single & rich or married but poor?
~erm.. married but poor? simplicity is wat i wan? thou i noe more or less i wun end up in a marriage? zzz

#16 What’s the first thing you do every morning?
~slp another 30 mins..

#17 Would you give all in a relationship?
~diao.. wat do u think? i reali will give all!!!

#18 If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
~i wun pick both.. i will sort things out with my own guts feelings!! thn i decide again.. no mind play, jux feelings to guide! =)

#19 What type of friends do you like?
~tos that im in touch now? those that are important to mi? those that nv give up on mi?

#20 What type of friends do you dislike?
~ where got friends u dislike? if u dislike le stil will be friends mehs? stupid qn....

Tag! You're It..

i dun wana tag others.. joel. this is jux to ying chou ni.. lol.. haha
v troublesome lo.. zzz

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went out with ruijun today... lol.. walk ard queensway and anchorpoint, looking for the things that she may liked.. lol... she wanted a watch and sports shoes... in the end, we ended up with nothing and ate at jack's place!!! =)
the food is quite nice, but i still nv reali seen my erm for v long le.. have been working at subway for the pass few days... tiring sia... since sat.. lol... erm.. i reali miss the days with the old staffs... esp... haiz... but too bad.. 2 of thm quit... thn zickie and hafiq erm... arhs!! i dun reali like the new staffs.. but generally i think i will be alrite huh?

we tok about our future again.... this is gona be boring... switch to another website, its gona be a repetition againz...... arhs.. i tink this is the place where i can whine at... cux i noe there will be some kind hearted soul that will be co-incidentally drop by my blog and take a look...
i didnt reali dare to pick up the fon and call.. cux im afraid of waking ani1 up from their lala land... =/n i think i will cry thats the worst.. im not gona let my feelings run ani wilder...zzz

i think most of the time, people jux think and take things for granted.. i duno if i tok ur hlp for granted.. but im sure that i did thank huever that had hlped mi along inside my heart.. be it in gess, jj, cdac, frens, subway, wateva, hu-ever, it doesnt matter, so long as u hlped, even it dint turned out smoothly for mi in the end, i appreciated... i think i always drop a msg along saying that i did reali appreciated ur hlp, if not the least, verballi.. i apologise if i dint...

but ppl jux take things for granted..the more u give, the more u take.. thats y there is this trend in the society that many are heading for thou thy knew tats its improper for them to do so.. that is: since every1 surrounding u are being selfish, even thou we were taught to be selfless, but it jux doesnt pay to be mr or miss good, so jux be selfish la!!! this is so damn wrong, we noe that inside our own hearts... is it reali that difficult to like jux thank some1 or go the extra mile, send a msg, saying that u, deep inside ur heart, had wanted to hlp? is it reali tat difficult?

are we being so blessed that we tend to waste food? did u noe the feeling for fasting? if u noe, thn u shld noe the feeling of starvation... ppl of 3rd world, they have nothing.... all they have are corrupted government, hu dint care about the people... all they have are bastards of their own countries, that did all the illegal stuffs? all they have are insecured life, jux the securities jux sux... u can get robbed and the next day u are found died on the streets? please la... u may think that u exaggerated.. but i believed deep inside u... u shld noe, u shld noe reali hard that its the truth.. u heard so much about all these things, be it in the movies or in the news.. ganocides, natural disasters.. can ani1 hlp? nope.. but we can go for a better world.. by starting to care for one another, without any thoughts of getting ani thing back in return...

if u dint noe, let mi tell u this.!!! imagine, the latest disaster, the quake in china.. imagine,.. u are alone, in debris, all around u are nothing but debris... u are hlpless.. u wanted to go get hlp... thn u run about looking if there are ani1 that can hlp.. this time, u had 2 choice :
1. u go get hlp, so that u can save urself 1st cux u r alr badly hurt or
2. u go hlp tose places ard u that u think there may be people that maybe surviving?

there is no 3rd actions, wat would u do?

be honest, touch urself and think....

do u ever thought of that scenerio? i dun think many will think of it... cux it just so weird to think of that cux u believed that u wun end up like that rite?

thats wat ppl of 911 thought so too.. thy are one of the busiest trade center that things are so peaceful back in NYC, that nobody thought so...

peeps... wat will happen if tml was the end of the world, and u only got time to do one last thing.. wat will that be? are there many regrets cux there are a lot things not done, or wat? or u jux dun believe that u are fated to live that short? or wat?

wat will happen if u are being diagnosed by some diesease and that no medicine can cure, thy only hlps by prolonging? will u be more tactful about ur actions thn before? will u treasure and appreciate things more then before? will u be able to think about how ppl feel? will u understand or want to know more about how u can hlp others cux u noe there is not enough time left? or will u jux hate ur life and give up?

there are many solutions out of any problems u may face... but i believe, as man, we tend to be selfish, so as to protect ourselves.. but have we ever thought of those that no matter how bad we are, there are ppl hu nv lead a normal life before? have we ever realised how blessed we are? im not saying that our government is v good.. but, at least the citizens arent reali suffering...

if u think u have some love, donate to those missionaries trips.. u nv noe how much ur 10 cents will worth... if u think u have some passion, go work things out with ur frens, organise ocip trips.. u will return with rewards, and life appreciation...

kids of singapore are so much blessed and protected, we dint noe about the ugliness that happen on the outside...

can u jux open ur eyes, c wats going on.. are they wat u see? or see with ur heart, is ur heart aching from all these saddening scenes?

jux think...

it will hlp...
if u could jux have sympathy...

it will hlp...
if u could jux spread the appreciation around...

it will jux hlp...
if u could jux think about treasuring not only ur life but others....

it will jux hlp...
if u could jux let go of the chained society thoughts..

it will jux hlp...
be enlightened..

Labels: is loving life itself.., loving another person