i wrote the 1st one not long ago.... that day was late, so i didnt get to write others out... i dun even noe if thy read the previous post... its jux too hard to accept wats reali had happened, wats happening, wats gona happened next.. things jx get weirder and weirder....

courage jux hit today.. so im trying my hard, to open up my eyes, to show how much i loved u guys.... wateva it is.... wateva happens, im jux there, im jux swaying... jux let mi wander, i will always return.. u may have to go the extra mile to make mi work harder... but i believed, it will meant that ur effort will never be wasted.. i noe i can be stronger.. if u teach mi how.... its gonna be a one way traffic soon.. i duno how much time i may provide for u all.. i duno how things are gonna be like.. so....

no regrets, no offence.... im jux trying to save things that are precious to mi.. heartfelt stuffs...

Mushroom gang:
Rosemary, Zoe, Rachel, Yan Tong, things jux get better with u peeps, no mushrooms i meant haha... being surrounded by u all i think its kinda a blessing yup yup!! thankx man!
zoe jux now got mention about class gathering, class outing.. its not like i totalli dun wan to be involve in it.. but zoe i think u ne la huh? haha.. u read my previous post le.. u shld noe its jux pains that no matter wat u do, ppl jux criticise cux it became a habit of theirs to do that to mi... maybe if its u.. i dun think thy will like cross the borders bahs? ya...
aniway, its jux seemed that things get happier, simpler bahs? jux in this comfort zone of u all...
Rachel, its not that i liked to suan u.. its jux tat somehow, it allowed mi to regained some self confidence that i had kinda lost la huh? haha but its oso to train u to be faster la.. lol... gotta get some self defence k? its gonna be tough, with ur classmates, have to click with thm even thou it jux dint seemed rite... wateva it is, jux be urself, only stronger
yantong, thanks for searching the song for mi.. joking la..lol.. thankx for enduring the nonsenstical stuffs that i had always been doing la haha...i noe i had been abit too lame.. but wateva it is, u beta stay happpy!

Rui Jun, i noe things are getting tougher, alot tougher than u think, u can manage like u had did before.... roads gonna be more winder and somedays there will be times where u jux culdnt find urself... i duno if im there whn u nida some1 there to hlp... u had hlped mi loads of the time... vice versa.. maybe, its tytm for independence le bahs? its kinda hard for u in future if im gonna hlp u always... i cna still give advice if u nid.. but dun heed all ok? its jux getting hard for mi to reali anaylse at ur level now.... im sinking at a rate i m still duno where am i and its jux so unstable for mi to reali adapt to the way or rate that im doing now.... wateva its is, try, dun regret anithing.... uur feelings are never wrong.. dun think... irrational things can only happen if u are carried by ur heartfelt feelings, not ur brainjuice thats squeezed ok?

Alex, for goodness sick, uu are never forgotten... ok, this is a sincere THANKS!!! its thanks to u tat i can be hu i reali am today... it was u hu opened up the road for mi... maybe u dun understand, but i jux wana say thank you.. i duno whn im gona c u again.. can we go out sooon? im reali missing u... s4 camp reali changed mi alot.. obs too.. if u didnt force mi to go, i dun think i can have much achievements that i have now huh? is jux that all these led mi to hu i am... maybe uu dint think that way... but im reali grateful that im being exposed to all these.... its kinda fun, reali fun... i dint regret, although its a hard path, with all tose sucky experiences rite?
mux be.. but i reali missed the olden golden days.... can history repeat?

Gwen, rawr!! haha.. things get happier i duno why with u ard huh.? brace up gal, studies shldnt be a prob for u i think.. haha thanks for all the concern.. its like we werent that close before.. its like i leave jj le thn we get closer cux of all the camps huh? thnks gal... its happy enough to hear that once in a while im not forgotten.... its like wa, touched leh!! haha its kinda like i erm, things gets beta whn u starts swearing and cursing.. haha stay pretty pretty gal!!

JingUo, its funi to noe u.. we both have weird backgounds and history huh? its like dun reali noe each other v well, but for the camps, for ppl ard us, we jux click huh? the concerns, thx... like gwen, thanks for being there whn i nided some1... yup... its gonna be like naggy but im still gonna say, wateva, no s****** k?! its no good... stress relief... but in long run u will c that it harms more than it hlps... wateva happen, stay postitive.. i liked the way u laughed... ur laugher does wonders u noe?! things gets tougher, jux toughen up and beat wateva thats in the way out ya>?

SAtRia, hey, thou i dun reali noe u, but thanks, the feeling is fun with u ard... been long since some1 treated mi the way u do.... i dun think there's some1 that treat mi this way.... but some1 closed to this feeling.. its been a month, thanks man.... working in subway with u makes mi feel beta.. its like i had kinda lost touch with the frens that had supported mi whn i had to distance myslf from jj... u gave that hope back to mi... like the olympic fire that burns the torch huh? thx loads... to be honest i was kinda afraid of u at least, maybe cux im in a total weird place with no chinese... u noe i nv reali interact with malays before rite? yup.. thankx for all the patience... curiousit kills the cat.. but u saved my feelings.. thnks!!

im gonna stop here.. still got many i wanted to thanks, but, jux believe in mi k?
sch gona open soon... its back to sch life.. in order to push myself, there are times, im not there for u... its gonna be tough for mi to get thru all the oordeals.. but im goonna try hard... but whenever u nid mi, jux drop mi a msg..

be hu u wana be
be wat u wanted to have
uu are hu u are
its not like ani other thing that changes...
u change to become beta, stronger...
like we change is the only constant thing ard..

wth... its like losing urself.. is it worth it?

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