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they always say...
life will turn better..
or for the worst..
i realised this...
that many will lie to themselves..
saying that the reality has always been cruel to them..
its always sweet after sour..
everybody had their own dreams..
and because they had encountered with different hardships.
trying to overcome them but yet..
during the process..
they failed..
they lied.. to feel better for themselves.
with the sympathy they had for themselves, they found new strength...
but is this new strength the 'strength' that they need?

we are born into this world
without any chains..
we are born into this world
without any worries
we are born into this world
without any sins
we are born into this world
without any hope
we are born into this world
without any faith
we are born into this world
with emptiness...

how many of us can actually get out of this world...
feeling the same like we had when we first felt the oxygen gushing into out lungs when the medical staff smack our butt in hope that we breathe.

wat happen if we are those that couldnt cry,
that couldnt feel the in-gushing of the air?
would any thing be any different?

this is damn lame.... ended sch at 5..
makan in t16 open spaced study area... watched a tw drama miss no good till 7 plus.. thn i realised shit!!! i nv bring foolscap and electronics to study.. since i wasted my time.. jux make use of today lo!!! shall update a bit... i will be shutting down this blog soon.. too much things happened.. i wana take a break.. sorrry... =X

many things happened.. i dint have time and i dint want to tok about it animore... dudes.. im gona make this blog stagnant .. till i got over with things tat are REALI BOTHERING ME!!!!

all i can say.....

IM FREAKING DISSAPOINTED!!!!!

freaking!!!!

i think im jux too busy to update..
but during these holidays..
i realised a lot things... its jux a clap away from all those evil thoughts.. its jux a matter of a clap.. clap them away!!



to him:
i duno if u had time to read this.. but.. i had to make things clear... =/

been going out, with my gals, doing data enrtying, soon, i will be back to subway to earn loads of money too.. haix....
HAHA! WENT TO pasir ris park on wed.. Didnt have much to do.. the park is kinda small... but we played the playground which was real fun!! =) erm.. on the way we found a puddle of water.. n guess what we saw? TADPOLES!!! omg.. there must be more than hundreds there.. we past them, thinking of going back there again to save the tadpoles.. something bad happen afta that, we shldnt tok about it again k gals? haix..

things are getting more and more complex.. im gettting more and more deeply involved. My determination, i hope it doesnt die out on mi...

somehow.. there is tis emptiness inside.. inside many others i would say... im trying hard not to think or feel. but its jux a bit hard huh? lol.... Had a few realisations these days... its kinda hard to put them down in words here. but no matter wat, i noe that im prepared for something greater if the world doesnt come to an end so soon... im prepared to face wateva fucking shit if i can overcome this obstacle here at home.. the feeling jux overwhelming mi, drowning mi at times.. i wana soar higher, but can i? Surviving in our own, in our cozy home, not paying attention to any other things, any other societies that are worse thn us, is there no help, no passionate peeps to brave the waves, step out and give a helping hand? Plague thy say these backward countries were.. Beyond hope thy are. But how would we noe if we werent there to help?

If there werent people to hlp singapore, would singapore be hu she is now? If there werent people to protect the endangered species, like the rihno, do u think u have the chance to see them again? If there is nothing done to the people suffering around the world, will the world still rotate? YES. Nobody will cares what happen to these peeps.. The most is jux one minute of silence like wat we did for the 911.. But wat the hell. u dint noe them doesnt mean they are not significant. If human race doesnt help their own species, there will be a chance, the plague will contd, no matter what u do to escape, if its beyond human control, there wouldnt be a chance that u will be cured. IM TOKING ABOUT AIDS HERE. If nothing is done to control... TO help the other societies that are deeply hit by the virus, There is no doubt things will get out of control... Its the tok about giving, not selfish... its not about giving material stuffs, but going down to understand their pain, the roots of their problems. Its never easy, its like learning to stand or tok while u are a kid.. we started from knowing nothing. but there are people to guide no matter wat.. so.. why are everyone afraid? if one is born here, in this no worries society, thn if that gives u the privilege not to care, thn wat happen if its jux ur luck to be of someone of a backward society, u wun even have the stress of playing, but finding scraps of food.. or trying to survive the night so that u can live another day...
Dun call mi crazy dun label mi as lunatic.. Im jux seeing and feeling things that most of u dun wana face.. its not that u didnt understand the need for stepping out ur comfort zone. u are unwilling to try..
If u are willing to hand out a helping hand, try watching earth from above, or going thru websites of voluntury organisation... give a helping hand, and recieve a gift like no others. tears of seeing a sincere smile of faces that never had a chance to see the dawn of the future.

woo HOoo!!! haha.. worked with zickie!! =) so happy.. but damn tired.. dint work nite shifts for so long liao.. did dining... so tired!!! but im happy! haha.. zickie bro nv failed to entertain mi.. haha.. play like crazy.. haha.. mized the days with him and aniki esp.. those are the crazy days.. haha

day 2 trying not to think about things that i shldnt think.. how far can i go? =/ its freaking sian looking tose with couple haha... ok. im toking no sense.. haha.. sian.. how far can i go? can i resist not going out? can i not sms? nahs..


things are getting harder.. im getting more and more dependent on him...